Two Dreams

I  am convinced we live in the best place on earth right now, which is why we are having such a hard time leaving and going back to Utah.  Not because of the weather (although it is the best weather in the world truly), not because of the beaches, not really because our school district is nationally ranked as one of the best, not because of the community feel here in the city, but because of the people in our ward.  They are the greatest.  They are so fun, so nice to everyone and strong in the church.  Many of them have been blessed with riches of the world, but are so down to earth, humble, and generous.  So we are struggling to leave it all.  We are been the most happy we have ever been as individuals, as husband and wife, and as a family.  That's really saying something.  Ever since we have got married we think, "life can't get better than this" and then it does get better.  We have been immensely blessed and are humbled by our blessings.  The Lord has taken us each and molded us to be better, to  desire better and to live better than before.  We have grown so much as a family. Our family is stronger, our relationships better, our lives richer and overall we are happier than we have ever been.  But, we always said we would live in Cedar City to raise our kids. We want our kids to have the "small town experiences" we had, to live close to our parents and families, and we want to own a home. That has been our driving goal and what we pictured for our lives.  But we a living a whole new dream.  A  great and wonderful, exciting dream.  One which we never thought possible.  And now, we are torn between two awesome dreams. Two different directions. Two different lifestyles. Two different paths.  Both great, just different.  We don't know what to do.  We are going to be so sad to leave the people, the adventures, the lifestyle, the opportunities we have here.  We are very anxious to move back.  We have changed.  Our families have changed.  Cedar City has changed.  And most often than not, we don't know what we will do for entertainment when we go back.  It has been 3 years since we lived there and we are not sure that Cedar City is the life for us. We felt very strongly about buying the house we did in Cedar and we know it was right to buy it. We just don't know if it is right to live in it right now.  So hopefully in the next month or two we will know which direction to go. Which path to take and then dream a whole new big dream!  I love my husband who has taught me to dream big and never quit dreaming.  He has met all my dreams and then exceeded them.  I realize the dream I had for my life was puny compared to the life he and the Lord have blessed me with.